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Friday, 09 January 2009
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Apples & Oranges.
I'm tired of living my life rationalizing certain things or behaviors so that I can sleep better at night. To avoid the obvious and ignore our calling means living in denial. What a crappy way to live, don't you think? To live in denial is to choose a halfway existence. Imagine living in a world where you feel pressured to like apples because everyone around you eats apples. You go on the rest of your life crunching on this fruit when really deep down inside you love eating oranges! The colour, the smell, the texture and most of all the taste totally appeals to you because that was the fruit that God created especially for you. Would you spend the rest of your life following the crowd pretending to be satisfied with Red Delicious apples? OR would you go against the grain and admit to your peers that it's florida sunkissed ORANGES you would rather have for lunch with your mac and cheese?Why is it that we put so much effort following the crowd or appealing to the crowd anyway? The population of earth did not create me. My peers did not knit me in my mothers womb! They do not know the exact number of hair I have on my head! That's God. He should be the only one on which I should base every decision of my life on.I could choose to live a life trying to please everyone else. It might be an easier life, and I'm sure I could find happiness there somewhere, if I rationalized enough. But wouldn't it be great if I found the courage inside of me to go the different path?Yes I admit, it'll be harder & full of challenges. It would require total faith and trust in God, and sometimes He is just so darn unclear about everything! But in the end, even though that road might be a little more painful and a lot more lonlier, it would be worth it in the end because it was the road He paved for me.I pray every day that God blesses me with the courage to go down that Orange Path - that He continues to give me the strength to get up when I fall, and to instill within me encouragement when I'm filled with doubt.One day in the near future I will live with the poor, and I will feel as if I am the richest person in the world because my dream would finally be my reality.
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
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Reality
Life's choices confuse me
My girlfriends surprise me
The world tempts me
But above all..
My God secures me.
I am so deeply in love.
Sunday, 15 June 2008
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Five & Twenty
I've grown a lot over the years I think. But in some ways I still feel so immature and teenage-like. That`s not such a bad thing I guess. The bible does say that unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven (matthew 18:3).
I hope I never stop looking at this world with a child`s eyes. There will always be a goal to strive for and I will always learn and experience something new.
So to challenge myself I`ve decided to make a list.
25 THINGS TO DO WHILE I`M 25
1) Visit a Gawad Kalinga site & help out in any way I can
2) Run (or jog! hehe) a marathon for a good cause
3) Wear a dress and feel completely comfortable & beautiful in it4) Watch horses race - and maybe bet on a race or two
5) Go on a road trip somewhere...anywhere
6) Sing a reflection song (yikes!)
7) Read all the books in the Old Testament
8) Pick up a hobby that would strike the creative part of my soul (I know it`s in there somewhere!)
9) Join/start a book club
10) Take my neice to the zoo
11) Learn to cook at least 10 filipino dishes
12) Visit my brother in BC and have some Purdy's ice cream!
13) Do my own hair & makeup for awedding/party14) Go to a museum or art gallary
15) Discover something about Winnipeg I never knew before
16) Watch a musical or play in the theatre
17) Help make someone else feel beautiful about themselves
18) Talk to someone new about God19) Have a whole conversation with someone in Tagalog and not sound like an idiot
20) Fall a little bit more in love with God everyday
21) Utilize my benefits & get a massage at least once a month
22) Host a fancy dinner party just because
23) Be a source of inspiration to someone24) Build a snowman that`s taller than I am
25) Host a gamers night!!
oo la la this is gonna be a fun year!
Monday, 05 May 2008
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Friends. gotta love em!
I'm so blessed because God has given me such good friends. Not just 'good time' friends who are there when there's no drama. But real honest to goodness always there for you no matter what and for sure I will be in every single one of their weddings (
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And sometimes, (& I'm sure I'm not alone on this) there are days when I feel so frustrated and I know in my head that all I need to do is pray about it, but I just can't get myself to do it. But praise God because He's given me friends that tell me, hey no problem I'll pray for you. I am so blessed.
You know they say that the people you surround youself with usually reflect the type of person you are. Well. I've got beautiful friends.
You know what that means? dang I'm beautiful too!
heehee
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